You Are Mine

Lord, every time I hear You knocking on my door, I understand that a distance still exists between You and me! Why do You not demolish the distances between us? I am not asking that You privilege me from anyone, but that You see me as Your own. I believe in You. I am waiting for You. I rejoice in Your visit. However, I aspire for You to stand in the middle of my history, and tell me with an explicit sign: “You are mine”. I want You to establish for me what You have established for Your disciples on Your Pascha. Is not Your entrance to them through “the shut doors” an irrefutable proof that You are theirs and they are Yours? Their flight on the day of Your crucifixion, or their fear, or their unbelief, had not prevented You from breaking in on them… treat me likewise. I am not imposing upon You what Your Word does not reveal. Your entering through “the doors” allows me to see my own door among them. O Lord, You Who have said: “seek and you will find”, this is what I am seeking. Do not be late for me. Have mercy on me by revealing that I am Yours.